Living death
Still, leaden
Eyes closed, mouth dry
I lie; not dead, but resting.
A dog whimpers (my dog)
Children giggle and shriek (my children)
Muscles tense instinctively
Then a low tone shushes and peace resumes.
The smell of sausages and a taste of smoke
A kettle clicks
Newsreaders drone, indistinct and ignored
Cars, far outside; seagulls cry
I piece together the world without me.
The urge swells to rise, laugh, hug
Eat sausages and drink tea
Walk the dog, play with the kids.
Muscles tremble and strain
Eyelids flicker hesitantly
Gravity drags at my bones
Glue runs through my veins
Syrup-slow I unfurl the fingers of one hand
Then sigh and relax, resigned.
The next breath carries me deeper
Further
The sounds of my life recede again
As I ebb here
Leaden, still.
– Steph Warren, 05.05.19.
Living Death is a poem by Steph Warren of Bookshine and Readbows, originally posted on Rainy Days and Bright Clouds blog. Please do not reproduce without the author's permission.
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