As i was observing the skies, I began to think how it must have seen this scene so many times—an adult looking up at it through window. And I would not be the last. Long after I am gone, billions of people will do the same as well.
Spiritual leader Sogyal Rinpoche stated, "The realization of impermanence is paradoxically the only thing we can hold on to, perhaps our only lasting possession. It is like the sky, or the earth. No matter how much everything around us may change or collapse, they endure."
The wisdom of the skies tells that I am not the only human being who had lived who has been feeling all these things—happiness, grief, sadness, joy, anxiousness, hope. This has been going on for centuries.
This year, my ego had me thinking of going further into the path of what my parents want, what my relatives want, and what the society wants. My ego also kept pushing me to be the best, the smartest and the greatest and creative-wise, it left me blocked.
However, it required finally surrendering to my nature—of finally following my calling and curiousities. That path meant letting go of several things, adding another year in college, disappointing some of my family and relatives, and misunderstanding from dozens of people.
The wisdom of the skies tells me that the only permanent thing is impermanence. The story that you have for yourself—the one that you keep holding on to—will one day collapse and you have to rebuild another, to once again surrender to what calls to you. One has to keep holding on to hope and have a strong faith.
My ego said, "No, you have to follow what they want above all else or you'll suffer, you'll be seen as weak."
But by surrendering to my nature, I felt more courageous. Rather than thinking I was weak by letting go of several think, j see it as courageous act over time. Despite its uncertainty and veering off the 'popular' path, I trusted and followed my inner wisdom.
It takes courage to follow my inner wisdom in this stage where a lot has an opinion of me, of who I should be, how I should act and how I should live my life.
The wisdom of the skies tells me that I'm gonna be gone in a minute. None of this is going to matter. Why would I ruminate about impressing others? It only serves my ego but not satisfying my soul.
As I am writing this under the dark, cloudless sky, I remember that I am just a passerby. I am someone impernanent. And instead of sadness, it fills me with joy as it frees me of the pressure of becoming the greatest to fulfill other's stories of me, but a more important thing is realizing that the opinions of other people would not matter as well since they are just passerbys like me.
And that leaves me thinking of more essential things like giving and receiving love, service and paying it foward.
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